On Sat, 24 Jan 1998, Wirehead Prime wrote: That was the goal of the druggies as well. :) Also the goal of those like myself, druggie computer geeks. ;) When I was 14, I was a junior in high school. Too young physically to befriend many of my classmates who were one or two years older than myself, and too old mentally to tolerate the kids my own age in junior high. :-/ Needless to say I didn't have much luck in the sex department. What I did was hang in the basement until I got a car, then I spent all my time working and hanging with my friends. I got the best of both worlds, and wouldn't do it any differently if I could go around once more and do it all again. However, even tho I know now that I could have had the best girls if I were x-ian and preppie, I would be the same old pot smoking longhair nerd that I was, reading 15# textbooks on physics. In order to have the "good life" I would have had to sell out on all of my beliefs, and I'm proud of _myself_ for sticking to who and what I am. What about the cool people who were also computer geeks? I wasn't alone, there were lots of shy, quiet, chess playing pot smokers back then! This is true, drug friends are not TRUE friends. However, I always knew the difference. So do most druggies, really. I'm a druggie (still, kinda got back into it again somewhat) so what does that make me? True I have a meaningless life, but don't all atheists? I mean, to realize you are a fluke, and have no right to be alive, that you parasitically suck off the rest of the life of the planet, and that you produce air and water pollution, these things make one feel kinda low, you know? X-ians don't have that worry, "god made 'em", thus they have meaning, purpose (albeit illusionary), and a reason to get up in the morning. I can see the advantage for religion, psychologically that is. Yes, she is beautiful, and sweet, and no I'm not going to try to steal her, because if I could, I wouldn't want her, you know? I doubt I could, so don't fear. You are a very lucky man Tony, KNOW THAT! You're also right about druggie girls, they are sluts, but that's all I have the choice of it seems anymore. :( Cathy said the other day that she wants to marry me after she sleeps with all the rest of the guys she wants to have a fling with. Once that's out of her system, she wants to settle down with me. She thinks it's a "done deal". :-/ I haven't had the heart to tell her she's wrong, that I'd never marry a girl like her. Can I quote you on that? BTW, is that how you feel about me, narrow minded, rude, obnoxious, smelly, unintelligent? I use drugs for enlightenment and to give consciousness a bit of variety. You know what I see, someone who's never tried drugs so they don't know what "mind expanding" means. :) If you really are the creative, intelligent and curious person that I have known you to be, then the first time you drop acid, you'd see what I mean, and you'd want to explore this new REALITY. The first time I took drugs, it was heroin, given to me by my best friend's brother, just back from Vietnam with the addiction. I was 10 years old. I asked him "what does it feel like" because I noticed (observation) that he went from looking angry and pissy to very happy, and peaceful, thus I asked him what it felt like. He showed me. I am still grateful, even tho the PRICE OF DRUGS and the POLICE OPINION ON DRUGS did ruin my life. Not the use, the price, and with the loss of my high pay job, ability to afford them, and when caught, the punishment of the cops. I myself am a tweak freak and a tripper. I bet you'd be too, were you to sample every drug out there, you'd probably settle on stimulants and hallucinogens like I have. Stimulants so you can keep going, without need of sleep for those non-stop projects and hallucinogens to become that little kid again, and to explore everything anew. Once on alt.drugs I posted that hallucinogens (LSD, psilocybin, etc.) make me feel like a little kid, the whole world is new, fresh, exciting, and needing to be explored. I'd stop and pick up leaves and explore them, play with ants, even dust bunnies are interesting. :) I can play with toys again when I'm tripping, and in short, to me, when I trip, I become that little kid again, that I always want to be. Hallucinogens seem to make us into little kids again, full of hope, dreams, and without prejudice, full of the ability to see things in a new perspective, a KIDS perspective, but with an adult mind. :) And when I said this on the group, I opened the eyes of every tripper, as they all said "yes, you're right, that's exactly it". :) sq -- -<squest(a)cris.com>---------\ ( ( | ) ) Amendment1 Congress shall make ============================> /_\ no law abridging the freedom MicroPower FM Broadcasting-/ /\_/\ of speech, or of the press.